In and Out Mind

In and Out Mind

All waves travel in 2 directions simultaneously and since the mind is a wave like phenomena it too is always traveling inward and outward at the same time.

Why are we not taught this?

 Implosion can not exist without explosion and explosion can not exist without implosion. They are 2 sides of the same wave. Every wave is constantly imploding and exploding and that includes the waves that our minds are made of.

 Now if you want to take this further, according to our model of reality, the whole world is a wave like phenomena and therefore everything you see is imploding and exploding simultaneously. What we see is the static representation of that but in reality the wave like reality is the balance between expansion and contraction of energy. We call that ‘matter’.   We call 'them' thoughts.

 So everything we look at is actually not static but in flux - in and out - simultaneously, and it is endless and infinite.  For inspiration along these lines see the videos of the Mandelbrot Zoom regression.

 So to contemplate this is a spiritual practice in itself as it has the potential to alter ones perception and bring one back to center… to balance the mind. Up till now we have been told of only half that picture and the result is an entire world of unbalanced minds craving for that one thing to bring them back to balance.  Just to know this about ones self and the world is enough to change your view of the world... because now you’re grounded in the infinite... as it should be.

 This lack of grounding in the infinite is destabilizing and has created a world that is literally ‘exploding’ at the seams in every conceivable way. If the world is going to find its way back to balance it first has to balance the source of this exploding world… and one way to do that is through appreciation of the infinite imploding side of the mind. We act out our view of the mind. So if we change our view of the mind… all else is open to change. And change - change for the better - is the one thing we all would like to see.

 So if you take the time to contemplate this just contemplate that every thought that comes to you... everything you see... is rooted in the infinite...  literally.   It's enough to stop you in your tracks... and that's what balancing feels like.   Then if you take this new view 'about' with you it's like a moving meditation.   It alters you... in a healthy way.

 PS - so now you have a view of the world that shifts your view of reality... you literally, in your mind, have an experience of the true nature of the mind - and matter - and reality...  So your view is informing you now.  It just doesn't get any more 'real' or convincing than that.   Now you don't need anyone to tell you what's real as your experience tells you what's real.   So you've 'cut out the middleman' so to speak and have gone directly to the source - the source that was there the whole time... in all times.

 It just doesn't get any better than that...


NOTE: The mind is composed of waves.   Find the inner direction of one and you've found the inner direction of the other.


You can't find something until you place your attention on it.

In order to understand paradox you first have to turn your attention in paradoxical directions.

In order to 'see' with a timeless view you first have to place your attention in a timeless direction.

In order to 'turn the mind within' you first have to turn your inner attention 'in'.

In order to turn your inner attention 'in' you first have to visualize where 'in' is.

Once you 'see' where in is heading... the rest is just a matter of practice.

Once you 'see' where 'in' is heading this blog will make perfect sense.


In the end it all depends on inner attention


The quickest way

It helps to remind ourselves that in any given moment half the mind is returning to source.   What we experience as mind... what we see as matter... is only the manifesting half of mind... arising up from an infinite source.   But because we only focus on the manifesting half of mind we lose touch with the other half of our minds... the inner half of mind... mind that is returning to its infinite source.

As it should be.

 So the quickest way to turn the mind within is to just recognize that in any given moment half the mind is always returning to source ... and to just be willing to contemplate that.   If that brings you back to center... you're 'in'.   We contemplate this with inner or background attention... as a 'free fall' in the back of the mind.   If inner attention has nowhere to land... it will free fall.   Infinite free fall is contemplating infinite regression in the back of the mind.   Infinite regression is the direction of 'in'.   Thus the mind is 'turned within'...

 The world is out of balance because we have neglected half of reality... half of the mind... the inner half of mind.   Our attention is out of balance... thus the world is out of balance... and our priorities are out of balance.   When we are balanced our priorities change because our focus has changed.   Changing focus changes priorities... that's how you know you've changed focus.   Changing focus puts everything in perspective... it's just common sense.

 In order to do this it is necessary that you are willing to believe - and contemplate - that half the mind is always returning to source in any given moment - thus if you're not successful with the exercise above the following exercises may help.

A visual aide

In order to visualize where 'in' is it helps to first visualize a single cycle of a spiraling wave... in the back of your mind.  Once we 'see' that then we next 'see' the imploding direction of this wave... 'in' towards its center.   Once we 'see' that it helps to 'see' that this inner implosion is infinite.   This has to be contemplated with background or inner attention, otherwise it's just a distraction.  In order to get a feel for what 'infinite' feels like it helps to view the videos of the Mandelbrot Set zoom infinite regressions.

 Or perhaps you can just contemplate a wave composed of an infinite regression of "spiraling vectors enfolding spinning scalars, enfolding spiraling vectors on into infinity".

Working with a new assumption

In order to help 'see' this infinite regression it helps to be willing to actually assume that infinite regression is the nature of reality by substituting one assumption for another.   After all, infinite regression either is reality... or it isn't.  If we're not willing to assume that then the mind will resist 'looking' at it.  So being willing to entertain this new assumption is key to 'seeing' it in our minds.   Once we're willing to assume that this is reality it gives us permission in our minds to contemplate it.

So the 'secret'... is to be willing to view reality differently...  IE: as having an infinite source... by substituting our old assumption for another.


Another visual 'aide'

Another visual aide is to imagine ones self alone in a space ship with a window on one side that faces deep space.   Now imagine your self gazing out into deep space with no place for your vision to land on.   Just allow your vision to gaze infinitely without any 'thing' to land on... its just the deep, black, infinite depth of the emptiness of space and our gaze has nowhere to land.   Allow it to just goes on and on...

Pretty soon you'll notice that your mind has calmed and you might even feel 'sane'... even peaceful   It's a practice.

Once you get the hang of the feel for infinity then its easier to 'see' that it can be found inwardly as well.
To turn the mind within it helps to remind ourselves that in any given moment half the mind is returning to source.   What we experience as mind... what we see as matter... is only the manifesting half of mind... arising up from an infinite source.   But because we only focus on the manifestating half of mind we lose touch with the other half of our minds... the inner half of mind... mind that is returning to its infinite source.

As it should be.

 So to turn the mind within is to just recognize that in any given moment half the mind is always returning to source ... and to just be willing to contemplate that.   If that brings you back to center... you're 'in'.   We contemplate this with inner or background attention... as a 'free fall' in the back of the mind.   If inner attention has nowhere to land... it will free fall.   Infinite free fall is contemplating infinite regression in the back of the mind.   Infinite regression is the direction of 'in'.   Thus the mind is 'turned within'... and we're 'seeing' the world from 'both sides now'.


Quantum Consciousness

NOTE: So called Quantum 'consciousness' is not 'quantum consciousness'.   Quantum consciousness is balancing awareness and consciousness... simultaneously.   'Quantum consciousness'... is a paradox. 

 Quantum 'consciousness'... is a 'superposition' in the mind.


NOTE: Quantum consciousness enables 'free' will, as 'free' will is individual will that is 'free' to be informed by intuition... instead of being distracted by the 'fog of consciousness'.


For a deeper look at whats expressed here see... Back to 'Who Needs the Higgs' blog

For more on these links see also this blogs Home Page linked here...


''Self remembering'

'Self remembering' is 'Self'awareness

You can't 'remember' the 'Self' because its not a memory... but you can choose to 'remember' to look for it... with inner attention... and thereby become 'aware' of it.

You can't be conscious of awareness... only aware of it.

Consciousness is consciousness of things.  Only awareness can be aware of its 'Self'.

Thus being conscious of things and being aware of awareness... simultaneously... is operating on multiple levels simultaneously.

Operating on multiple levels simultaneously is a sign of a burgeoning individuality... or 'Self'.   

Thus, in Gurdjieffs terms, 'remembering' the 'Self'... is being aware of ones 'Self'.


The mind of a Sage

 Sages don't see themselves as 'persons'.  They 'see' themselves as non-local impersonal individuals speaking through the vehicle of their individual human experience.   

Big difference.

So the next time you see a sage and 'think' you see a 'person'... think again.


"If he were to think the he was asleep he would wake up(from Ouspensky's 'In Search of the Miraculous').


'Seeing' the world the way it really is

There are several points in Ouspensky's 'In Search of the Miraculous' that are essential to internalize if the individual is to take advantage of what Gurdjieff has to say.   The first is in the beginning on pages 17-28 where 'G' covers a number of important topics to the reader but the most 'essential' topic - a topic that is required if one is to take advantage of 'Gurdjieff'... is the point that people, as we know them (including ourselves) are 'machines'.   Not in their nature... but in their behavior as a reflection of their level of awareness... or lack thereof.   IE: they are strictly subject to 'outside' influences and as such are 'asleep'.

The reason this is essential is that as long as we 'project' the ability to 'do' onto those that are devoid of it, we will mistakenly 'believe' such an ability to 'do' exists in ourselves... further cementing our own sleep.
The other reason this is 'essential' is that to 'see' the world the way 'it is' is to devalue it in our minds in relation to our own being.  As long as we value sleeping existence over our own being, we will not be motivated to transcend it... IE we won't have the will to overcome it.

 It's a trap.   A 'self' created trap.

So as long as we see others as 'awake'... we deny our own sleep... and value the world 'as it is'... IE a sleeping world.

The most 'compassionate' thing we can do is to first 'see' others... as they are... not as we imagine them to 'be'.


 “To ordinary people, I look completely mad.   To me, ordinary people look completely mad.”



'Seeing' through others peoples Ouspensky

Gutdjieff saw the world as a world of sleeping people... because he saw that they were convinced they were their 'Ouspensky'... and asleep to their own impersonal awareness or being.   

He called them... 'mad machines'... 

because 'they know not what they do'.

They 'know not what they do'... because they've 'forgotten' what's in their highest 'Self' interest... (because they don't 'remember' their 'Self').

Thus if Sartre would say that 'hell is other people'... then Gurdjieff would say that 'hell' is other 'persons'... as in 'hell' is other 'Ouspensky's'.

Thus, the way out of 'hell'... is to see through other peoples 'Ouspensky'... (including our own)... by 'remembering' our 'Self'.

IE: Seeing through other peoples 'Ouspensky'... is seeing through their belief in their own sleep.

(IE: We put each other to sleep... by seeing each others 'Ouspensky')

Thus we wake up when we see through other peoples belief in their 'Ouspensky'... (as well as our own)... when we 'remember' our 'Self'.


NOTE: Seeing through other peoples 'Ouspensky'... is seeing through Mara's daughters.

Seeing through others 'Ouspensky is a practice that can be practiced.


Seeing through other people

When you see through other people (including your 'self')... you're no longer 'considering' them as their 'Ouspensky'... but you're more likely to be 'considerate' of them... because you 'see' them for the unique individuals that they are... whether they know that or not.

It's a paradox.

Thus if 'hell' is other 'persons'... then 'seeing' others as individuals... creates a 'workable situation'... whether they know that or not.


NOTE: 'seeing through' other people (including ourselves) is a paradoxical term that implies the withdrawing of mind projections from them... or what's known, in yogic terms, as a form of... pratyahara.

Withdrawing mind projections from 'other people' creates 'space'... as in the mental space... to 'respond' to them... instead of mechanically reacting to them.

Practicing the withdrawal of mind projections from other people (including ourselves) is an act of will that creates space... for impersonal awareness (original mind) to arise.

IE: choosing to withdraw mind projections from other people is an act of will... that leads to awareness... that leads to the ability to... 'do'.

Thus... 'Doing' implies that the individual is operating outside the purely mechanical general laws of 'persons'... thus they are 'free' to serve their own highest good as well as the highest good of 'others'.   Thus they are free to influence their future... in this life and beyond. 

That's called... choosing 'free will'... by choosing to wake up.

Choosing 'free will'... is choosing to wake up... because it beats the 'hell' we're in.

So the next time you see a 'person' and think you see a 'person'... think again.

Or more correctly... the next time you see an individual and see someone who's convinced they are their 'Ouspensky'... you're right.

When you 'see through' other people you still see their behavior... for better or worse... you just don't 'personalize' it.

IE: you don't take it 'personally'.


When you can see through other peoples 'Ouspensky'... you'll intuitively  understand... 'the way of doing something'.

'Seeing' through other people... is 'seeing' through the behavior of other people... for better or worse... and then dealing with them as they are.

Dealing with people as they are (and not as we imagine them to be) is a 'workable' situation.

You'll be withdrawing mind projections automatically from other people when you're no longer attributing their behavior... for better or worse... as the behavior of a 'person'.

When you 'see' through other people... you'll be automatically minding your own business... in the highest sense.

'Seeing' through other people is what 'namaste' is all about.   Namaste is just no longer being 'fooled' by other peoples 'Ouspensky'.   Namaste is just dealing with people as they 'are'... not how we imagine them to be.

Waking up is just the practical 'workable' application of... 'namaste'.

IE: Waking up is the practical mental yoga of 'namaste'... that allows us to deal with others as they 'are'... for better or worse... not how we imagine them to be,  Thus we're no longer 'fooled' by them... or by our 'selves'.

'Namaste' is just seeing through other people... as well as our 'selves'.

IE: Namaste is just dealing with others as they 'are'... not how they imagine themselves to be.

Gurdjieff 'understood' namaste... without showing his 'hand'.


  NOTE: If you find yourself looking 'down' on others as 'asleep' then you forgot to include yourself.

  'Seeing through other people' is the 'sly' way to 'collect attention'.

'Seeing through' Gurdjieff is a god place to start... to 'see through' other people.

NOTE: When you learn to 'see' through other people... you'll be 'Happy' you did... automatically.


"If we see what we have not got we will know what we want"

  from  It's up to Ourselves  by Gurdjieffs daughter


Ouspensky wakes up

 For an example of this waking up read page 265 in Ouspensky's 'In Search of the Miraculous'.  In it, he describes walking down a street when, suddenly, he starts to 'see' sleeping people everywhere... that is... until he saw that he'd 'fallen asleep' himself, once again... when his 'attention' wandered.

The difference is that in Ouspensky's case it just 'happened'... whereas the individual can turn that around and 'do' it themselves... intentionally... by changing their own assumption about the world they can change their view of the world... and themselves in it.

Waking up is an act of...'will'.

Practicing 'waking up' is practicing 'will'... by making a conscious choice.

When you 'wake up'... conscience is a 'given'.

Ouspensky 'woke up' in that moment... because he was 'seeing' through other people.

He saw through them because he saw they were convinced they were their 'Ouspensky'... while he 'knew better'.

He 'saw through' them... in that moment... because he wasn't projecting anything 'onto' them...  that they were 'not'... anymore.

(because his inner attention was 'collected')


NOTE: When you're no longer 'considering' others as their 'Ouspensky'... you're moving from the 'stairway'... to the 'way'.

Crazy wisdom teachers don't 'consider' your personal opinion of them... because they don't 'consider' you a 'person'.

IE: Sages don't 'consider' your 'personal' opinion of them... because they don't consider this a 'personal' world... but an impersonal world that has been 'personalized' by the imaginings of 'other' individuals like themselves.

   Thus they are in a 'position' to 'understand' others... by 'seeing' through the imaginings of 'others'.    Namaste is just a natural respectful expression of that 'understanding'... whether you 'understand' that or not.

In the west, namaste doesn't have to be expressed outwardly... but it can be 'understood' internally... without anyone else knowing whats going on.

IE: without showing your 'hand'.


On Waking up

The individual 'wakes up' when it 'dawns' on them that this is a world of 'sleeping' people.  Their basic working assumption is that everyone they meet is 'asleep'... until they demonstrate otherwise.  Those that are 'awake' don't feel the need to prove to others that they are 'awake' as 'reality' is 'Self-validating'.  It's all the 'proof' they need.   Its up to 'others' to impress them... that they are 'awake'.   So the burden of 'proof' is on 'others'... not the awakened individual. 

This working assumption of the reality of this world reprioritizes and rearranges their inner and outer values including how they value this world in relation to their Being, intuition and conscience.

This inner reprioritization of Being results in an increased inner and outer focus of awareness or attention and a greater reliance on their own Self.

When this 'realization' (IE acceptance) of the fact that 'this is a world of sleeping people', is the primary filter of ones perception you 'wake up'... because it gives you the motivation to withdraw your mind projections... because it changes your values... and thus your inner attention is naturally redirected because inner attention 'falls'... on that which is 'left over'...

IE: our impersonal awareness... which now has room to arise.

Inner attention 'falls' on Being naturally when we no longer value this world for what it is not... because we 'see' through the world for what it is.

As long as we value the world for what it is not, inner attention will be distracted from Being... by our own mind projections... which 'project' our inner attention away from being.

As long as we value this world for what it is 'not'... we'll be distracted from reality.

As long as we're distracted from reality, we'll be distracted from the truth about this world.

As long as we're distracted from the truth about this world... we'll be 'asleep'.

If you want to awake you have to be willing to see the world the way it really is.

If you want to wake up you have to be comfortable with the world the way it really is.

If you want to wake up you have to have the will to forego distractions.

If you want to wake up you have to have no expectations of how the world should be... other than what it is.


Realization of the 'reality' of this world... is an 'advantage' in this world.

Waking up is an advantage in life.  If you don't see waking up as an advantage - there is no motivation to awaken.

Realization of the world as a world of sleeping people is an advantage... in a world of sleeping people... who want to distract you.

Reality is an advantage because 'mystery creates doubt'... and reality puts the 'doubter' in its proper place.


Reality... explains alot of 'things'.


The purpose of waking up is to focus inner attention on the reality of ones Being.  Make 'being' a distraction... and see what happens.

Waking up puts distractions in their proper place so we can focus on reality... the reality of our own Being... once and for all.

IE: mind projections are a distraction.

So waking up is a pre-cursor to Greater 'things' to come.

Waking up sets the stage... for Greater 'things' to come.


When you wake up you don't value the 'personal' opinions of 'others' over your own conscience because you see that they are the 'personal' opinions of sleeping people.

The best time to wake up is early in the morning... when you 'wake up'... before the distractions start.

Waking up can be practiced... by practicing the acceptance of the fact that this is a world of sleeping people.   Acceptance of this fact as a new working assumption... is practicing waking up.

So the best time to practice waking up is early in the morning... before the distractions start.

Waking up can be practiced... until you learn to rely on it.

 Waking up can be practiced until you rely on it more than you rely on distractions.

You'll rely on reality when you value it more than distractions.

You'll rely on reality more... the more you practice it.

The more you practice it... the more its value will be obvious.

Waking up is obvious... in light of awareness.

When waking up is 'common sense'... you'll no longer need to practice it.

When waking up is 'common sense' you'll no longer have to 'tell' the world what it is... because it will just be 'understood'.


NOTE: When we wake up we wake up to our own being... that has no 'opposite'... thus it has no bone to pick with the 'person' or the body.

NOTE: When we wake up we wake up to the fact that we're asleep.  We then realize that we are 'responsible' for our own sleep... so waking up is taking responsibility for our own sleep.  So when you wake up you wake up to your own being... which was asleep to it's own Self

NOTE: Taking responsibility for our own sleep is a relief... because we know that we don't have to wait for someone else to awaken us.  So we have nowhere else to look.  Thus 'seeking' gets narrowed down quite a bit... so we're more focused... we're more focused on the answer.

Being responsible for your own sleep is... 'impersonal' empowerment.

'Personal' empowerment can be problematic... impersonal empowerment is an 'aspect' of knowing how to wake up.

IE: If you want to go to heaven... you have to first get out of 'hell'.

IE:  the 'self' imposed 'hell'.'

Once you're out of 'hell'... the rest is a 'workable' situation.


NOTE: Nothing 'focuses' the mind like realizing that we are asleep.

'Seeing' that you are asleep is the quickest way to 'wake up'... even if only for a moment.


But... When someone 'impresses' us that they are 'awake'... that should get our attention.  When we 'respect' someone who impresses us as being 'awake' (awake to their own sleep)... that's called validating the 'others' essence.   It's a form of mutually acknowledged 'impersonal' respect.


The Matrix of mind projections

Being 'responsible' for your own awakening is like taking your own 'red pill'... without the 'pill'... and without the 'side effects'.   When you wake up to your own Self you realize that 'Morpheus' only 'appears' as a manifestation of your own will.  And then 'Morpheus' is seen as your own 'Self'.


In 'The Matrix'... 'machines' ('Mara's daughters') are portrayed as 'agents'.

 If you are looking for a spiritual analog of 'The Matrix'... then the Gurdjieff (and Ouspensky) in 'In Search of the Miraculous' is a good place to start... because it was Ouspensky who was the 'One' who delivered his message... in the end.

NOTE: The 'Matrix' of mind projections... is the 'hell' we're in.


Conscience Defined

The reason it is important to 'see' others (including ourselves) as asleep is because as soon as we 'see' the reality of others (including ourselves) as asleep we start to 'see' the reality of our Selves... as awake... because we 'see through' our own sleep.  Its a paradox.   As long as we 'tell' others they are awake... we'll 'tell' ourselves the same thing... despite being 'asleep' to our own sleep.

Being 'awake' is being 'awake' to our own 'sleep'.

As long as we see 'others' as awake... we'll value their 'personal opinions'... especially their 'personal opinions'  about us.  As long as we value the 'personal' opinions of 'others' who are 'asleep'... we'll discount our own intuition.   As long as we discount our own intuition we'll be cut off from conscience.

Impersonal awareness or Conscience is a 'sustained intuitive, impersonal knowing' of what is 'right' or 'wrong' in a given situation, unencumbered by 'personal' opinions'.

What is 'right' is that which supports reality.  What is 'wrong' is that which distracts from reality.


What is 'right' is that which supports our understanding of reality... or is in the best interest of reality in a given situation.   What is 'wrong' is that which distracts from reality... in any situation.

'Right' and 'wrong' in this world is about that which promotes reality and that which distracts from reality.

Conscience 'understands' what supports reality... and what distracts from reality... intuitively.

So conscience is an intuitive ongoing impersonal understanding of that which supports or distracts from reality in any given situation.

The more you rely on conscience... the less you'll rely on the 'personal' opinions of 'others'. The less you rely on the 'personal' opinions of 'others' the less you'll 'consider' them.   The less you 'consider' the 'personal' opinions of 'others' the more you'll be 'considering' your own conscience.

The more you 'consider' your own conscience... the more you'll rely on it.

When you value knowing 'right' and 'wrong' over your own 'personal opinions'... you're waking up.

When you value your own conscience over the 'personal' opinions of 'others'... you're waking up.

When you value your own conscience... you value your own being... even more than your own personal opinions.


The Gnostic Gurdjieff is the 'Essential' Gurdjieff

Gnosis is 'knowing'.

A 'Gnostic' values 'knowing'... more than their own 'personal' opinions.

So a Gnostic 'knows better' than their own 'personal' opinions.


A Gnostic is one who values conscience over their own 'personal' opinions.

A Gnostic is one who values knowing 'right' from 'wrong'... over their own 'personal' opinions about 'right' and 'wrong'.

A Gnostic is one who values their own conscience... even more than their own 'personal' opinions.

Gurdjieff was a Gnostic because he valued reality... more than his own 'personal' opinions.

Gurdjieff was a Gnostic because he valued his own Being... more than his own 'personal' opinions.

Gurdjieff was a Gnostic because he valued his own conscience... more than his own 'personal' opinions.

'Essence' is Being.  So the 'Essential' Gurdjieff is the Gurdjieff that valued his own Being... over his own 'personal' opinions.


Gnostics are 'awake' to their own 'sleep'.

NOTE: A Gnostic is someone who is 'responsible'... for their own 'sleep'.

IE: Gnostics are good 'citi-zens'... because you can be 'considerate' without considering.   

It's a paradox.

Being 'considerate' is a form of 'consideration' and respect for 'others'.  It's what Gurdjieff called 'external' considering.   'External' considering is natural when we 'understand' others... as well as ourselves.


NOTE:  The awakened Being is satisfied with it's Self because 'reality' is obvious... and obviously impersonal.


Ouspensky's view of the 'Self'

The quote below (from page 380 of Ouspensky's 'In Search of the Miraculous') refers to the impersonal confidence (as opposed to 'personal' confidence) that is synonymous with the view from the 'Self'.

"Remembering all I had experienced in the preceding year, particularly after G's departure, I said that I had acquired a strange confidence, one which I could not define in one word but which I must describe."

"This is not self-confidence in the ordinary sense", I said, "quite the contrary, rather it is the confidence in the insignificance of self, that self we usually know.  But what I am confident about is that if something terrible happened to me like things that have happened to many of my friends during the past year, then it would be not I that would meet it, not this ordinary I, but another I within me that would be equal to the occasion.  Two years ago G. asked me if I felt a new I inside me and I had to answer that I felt no change whatever.  Now I can speak otherwise."

That 'strange confidence' is what's known as 'impersonal' confidence... as opposed to 'personal' confidence.    'Personal' confidence is a variable function of the memory and experience level of the 'person' or 'self'.  'Impersonal confidence' is an innate characteristic of the 'Self'.  

 IE: it comes with the 'Self'.

Big difference.

'Impersonal' confidence is innate to the 'Self' because only the 'Self' has no 'opposite'... and it doesn't get 'overconfident'.   It just 'knows', thus it has no doubts.   It was 'strange' to him because he was, in temporal terms, 'new' to it... and thus not expecting it... yet he was clearly pleased with it.

The appearance of a 'new' I happens because as the 'Self' arises our identification naturally shifts to it.  Thus it appears to the individual as a 'new' I.   Eventually with experience it appears as the 'actual' I, as in the I that we actually are... as opposed to the 'apparent' I that 'appears' to us as I.

IE: our 'Ouspensky'.


Authors NOTE 10-10-15


Buddhism can't be 'constructed' as in piling one concept on top of another until we come to a 'conclusion'.  It can only 'dawn' on the individual as the result of a 'deconstruction' of fundamental assumptions.  

So Buddhism is not a construction site... it's more of a 'hole' in the foundation.

The 'hole' in the foundation in Buddhism is where the 'personal' me (our 'Ouspensky') used to go.


Deconstructing Gurdjieff

If this page is helpful to individuals who are interested in the connection between Gurdjieff, Gnostics, Buddhism and Vedic thought systems it is because it 'takes' what's 'common' to all of them... which is what all of them have in 'common' from the standpoint of impersonal awareness (balanced with personality)... and 'leaves' (deconstructs) the rest... IE: that which is unique to all of them... or that which could potentially create unnecessary mental conflicts or 'barriers' in the mind to 'understanding'.  

So when you 'deconstruct' all that is around each of them and just 'leave' the rest... that which they have in common from the standpoint of impersonal awareness, then you are 'down' to the 'essentials'... as in the 'essential Gurdjieff'.

When Gurdjieff 'dawns' on you... as in his impersonal being or 'essence', there's no more need to turn him into a 'construction site'... because you 'understand' him now.

IE: Deconstructing Gurdjieff (the 'Essential' Gurdjieff) from his ideas is just... 'taking what you like and leaving the rest'.


NOTE: When you are letting go of (deconstructing) 'false ideas' (assumptions) about yourself... original (proper) mind will be staring you right in the 'face'.

 Gurdjieff was all about the 'way'... and all about 'doing something'. 

Detached and intuitively informed impersonal awareness is the 'way'... the 'way' that shows us the way to 'do' something.

  When you are 'doing' something for your highest good, as well as the highest good of 'others'... you have the 'tao' right where you want it.


 Choosing influences 

We are always subject to influences.  But Gurdjieff spoke of the possibility of, even the necessity of, 'choosing influences'... as a conscious choice, because we are 'never not' subject to influences, if you will.  But he left the door open as to what that choice was exactly.  The more our impersonal awareness is distinct from our 'Ouspensky' the more intuitively informed and 'intelligent' our choices become... IE they're more free from conscious thought about them and more instantaneous and seamless... because impersonal awareness is the 'antenna' that 'receives' intuition.   So the more distinct and noticeable the awareness... the greater and more seamless the intuitive 'direction'  we receive.   So we go from being directed by mechanical outer 'influences' (some very far away) to being informed by intuitive inner 'influences'... (closer than close).

 Choosing the 'influence' that is more 'profitable'... is part of the conscious 'path'.

 That choice is made with inner attention.

 Gurdjieff's use of 'profitable' in this sense is 'understanding' what's in our 'highest interest'.

The 'person' (our Ouspensky) is a contradiction... thus it may or may not know what's in our highest interest.   Only the individual knows, without a doubt, that which is always in its 'highest interest'... because it's intuitively 'understood'... because only the individual operates on multiple levels... simultaneously.

Thus it's the highest form of... 'common sense'.

Understanding 'common sense', in its highest 'sense'... is no longer 'falling' for 'Mara's daughters'.

Common sense in its highest sense is... 'conscience'.


Once the individual sees that the 'original flaw' is in the world... and not in their nature as impersonal being... then they start to see that this flaw manifests as the 'matrix' of mind projections, contradictions (and distractions) that serve our 'Ouspensky'... (and 'Mara's daughters')... and not our 'Self'.   Thus they start to see that their business is not to fix the original flaw in the world because the world is going to do what the world is going to do... and there is nothing anyone can do about it except to overcome it (IE 'outwit' it)... first for the sake of ones 'Self'... and then by extension... 'others'. 

This recognition shifts our inner values which has the effect of shifting our inner attention off of our 'Ouspensky' and onto our 'Self'... which knows better.

This 'shift', at some point, can become a conscious 'choice'... thus the 'choice' of influences.

IE: choosing 'that' which we pay inner attention to... because it's obviously in our highest interest to. 


NOTE: When intuition becomes more and more obvious it becomes the obvious choice.   Thus we begin to rely on one over the other... without abandoning the other.   

That's a paradox.


Movement and General Laws

Unconscious habits are a symptom that 'General Laws' are in effect.  Unconscious habits are solidified in the body.  Gurdjieff understood that bodily practices 'break up' unconscious habits... into conscious habits... and awareness.   

Bodily practices are 'conscious' movement... that are practiced 'consciously'.

Conscious habits are 'useful'... to the individual.   Unconscious habits are a symptom of 'sleep'.   Awareness of habits is a symptom of waking up.   Bodily practices support waking up.

Conscious habits and awareness are symptoms that General Laws are losing their effect.

Loyalty to ones own impersonal awareness, being or essence is a conscious habit worth 'aiming' for.

Bodily practices (yoga) build will... thus minimizing the need to sacrifice our willfulness until we have our own will.

The downside is hubris.   

The 'cure' for hubris... is to 'serve' others. 


Gurdjieff's Sacrificing of suffering

You'll know you're no longer 'personalizing' the world when you can sacrifice your suffering... at will... when you 'see' it's in your highest good.

'Suffering' in this context is 'existential' suffering.  IE: suffering brought about by 'self' absorption... not the inevitable suffering we all encounter as human beings... which is not a problem... when 'seen' from the proper perspective.



NOTE: Every time you see through the 'person' you're chipping away at 'buffers' between you and reality.

Attachments support 'buffers'... because they support contradictions.

Managing 'buffers' takes alot of attention.

'Personal' contradictions are inevitable because the personality exists to perpetuate 'personal' contradictions.

Opposites are the 'echo chamber' for 'personal' contradictions.

Individuals 'see' through their own 'personal' contradictions.

Thus individuals don't 'settle'... for their own 'personal' contradictions.

Individuals 'settle'... where their attention 'settles'.

When you're no longer satisfied with 'personal' contradictions... you'll be willing to 'see' through them.


50 Gurdjieff themes in the Who Needs the Higgs Blog

The homepage of this blog started out as a spiritual practice in writing but then it revealed something 'else' that was unexpected.

See if you can pick out the 50 Gurdjieff themes (listed below) in the 'Who Needs the Higgs blog'... (linked here).  I didn't... not at first.   It took a few months after writing the main core of the blog (in the Home page) in the Fall of 2011 before I began to 'see' them.   They can be found in Ouspensky's 'In Search of the Miraculous'.   What surprised me was that I hadn't read it in over 5 years... nor was it on my mind when I started writing the blog... yet clearly parts of it had been 'buried' in my mind.   How strange.  Or maybe what it says is 'just' universal... and available.   In any case, in terms of his Understanding, his Will, his Being, his Self Mastery, and his Conscience, my respect for Gurdjieff has only gone up.  The list below applies to the latter group in my opinion, as those are, 'essentially'... 'The 'Essential' Gurdjieff.  

IE: that which is 'essential' in order to 'understand' him.

The 'Who Needs the Higgs' blog can be particularly helpful to individuals who are working on their own (and who have done their homework) as it is experiential in that it contains several simple practices, hints and reminders that can help the reader to actualize the principals in everyday life.   It's a  practice that can be practiced... together with practices that can be practiced.


In addition it is helpful in shedding light on the Double Arrow of Attention, as it gives a take on it that is experiential and useful.   It also sheds light on why Gurdjieff referred to himself as the 'unique idiot' and how that can apply to the seeker because the 'person' is 'special' but the 'individual'... is 'unique'.   Anyone can be 'special'... but being content to be 'unique... is unusual.   Being 'unique' without being 'special'... is an 'impersonal art'.   Objective 'art' is art that encourages an objective view... by inspiring our own impersonal objective 'art'.

Individuation is not separation.  Individuation is a 'unique' individual perspective... of the 'whole'.  If Gurdjieff was anything... he was 'unique'.


NOTE on studying this List

NOTE:  To study the list below it helps to go back and forth between the blog home page and the list and then re-read about them in 'Search' again... and then see if you are understanding them in a new light.   They can be found by looking through the Index in the back of 'Search' or the notes on each chapter in its Table of Contents, if you haven't already bookmarked them.

NOTE: Gurdjieff was a 'paradox'... so it helps to understand paradox in order to 'understand' Gurdjieff.

1) The Double Arrow of Attention... the 4th way teaches first to focus inner attention on the body - as in 'outside' the head... similar to HeartMath... or in the Buddhist teaching of following the breath, as well as 'collecting' it... 'in'.  The blog give a visualization tool for turning inner attention 'in' based on the 'arising and subsiding' nature of waves.   Bodily practices (intentional 'movement') teach us how to focus inner attention 'in' the body... thus 'separating' it from outer attention... in our minds... so that we can use it... intentionally.

2) Attention... "if TV we're paying attention it would be focused on itself and then we could all get back to reality".   All spiritual practice, in the end, is about inner attention.  The blog is about distinguishing inner attention from outer attention... and working with 'that'.   Attention is required because being is the hardest 'thing' to 'see'.

3) Being... What Gurdjieff calls 'essence' the blog calls 'being'... same 'thing'.  His reference to being in 'Search' is not as clear as his explanation of essence... so if you see what he says about essence then the blog will make perfect sense.   Particularly as it relates to the balance of 'being' or 'essence' and personality.

4) Trinities... their relation to individuality... and their role in resolving 'opposites'.  You have to be '3' before you can be 'one'... so to speak.  IE: the Law of Three.

5) Ego - as it relates to a singular permanent 'I'.

6) Individuality.   What is an 'individual'... vs a 'person'.   Individuals have a balance between  'essence' and personality.   'Persons' have little or no essence.   Our 'Ouspensky' is the 'person'.

7) Understanding - the nature of this most misunderstood  word... see also... More on Understanding.   Understanding is what comes from being informed by being or essence... you 'understand'.

8) Balance - as it applies to the seeker and society.   Individuals are balanced... persons are problematic.   Individuals are a balance of 'personality'... and essence.

9) Will...  and how its related to 'doing'... and his 'making a future'.  Gurdjieff defines will as 'conscious control'.  So..."Will is a faculty useful to being.    But will-fullness is a product of the person.   One is fueled by belief... one is a tool for being.   One is free to use... one comes at a cost.   Until we distinguish the two... there will be doubts about free will"... from the 'Who Needs the Higgs' blog.

10) Transmutation... the nature of it... how to practice 'transformation' via transmutation.

11) Waking up"If he were to think the he was asleep he would wake up" (from Ouspensky's 'In Search of the Miraculous').   Enough said.  The section above as well as the home page speaks to this and shows how to practice it. 

12) Bodily Practice...  Gurdjieff's movements are about the body because mechanical habits have been solidified in the body thus they 'begin' in the body.  So bodily practices are where habits can be powerfully transformed into awareness.  Gurdjieff Movement groups are hard to find, thus the blog encourages bodily practices like yoga as another, more accessible way to become a more balanced, 'flexible' and adaptable seeker.

13) Suffering... and the transmutation of unnecessary existential suffering (as opposed to ordinary human suffering)... as 'food' for being.

14) Identification... and it's relation to imaginings... and attention.

15) Aim... and will... and how it relates to having a 'purpose'... which manifests as 'doing'.  'Doing' in this sense is thus 'dharma'.

16) To be... is recognizing when you 'are'.  See also... Self Inquiry and Buddhism

17) Being Serious... Gurdjieff was absolutely serious... and he had a sense of humor.  They can work together.

18) Conscience... the source of Gurdjieff's conscience.   Conscience is 'obvious' in light of awareness... it's 'common sense'.  Persons are 'informed' by external influences.  Conscience is what 'informs' the individual.  So individuals 'know better'.

19) Objective Art... and its relation to Quality, Sacred Geometry and the Golden ratio... IE: it's what Gurdjieff referred to as...'mathematics'.   Why individuals appreciate objective 'art'... and why it is an aide to - and a sign of - individuality... as well as an 'intelligent' society.

20) Man as Machine... the 'person' is a machine... being or essence  is 'that' which is free from outside influences... thus not 'machine like'.  IE: detached.  So the blog is about recognizing both... and using that knowledge to the seekers advantage.

21) The Unique idiot... the 'person' is 'special'... the individual is 'unique'.  Gurdjieff was a unique individual.   Unique individuals have a unique 'personal expression and history' coupled to being which is common to all.   Thus 'unique' individuals are a paradox.   Our 'Ouspensky is 'special'... our individuality is unique.

22) Progress... all problems with 'progress' are 'self' induced problems... IE problems induced by the 'person' that is oblivious to being.  True progress is 'recognition of being'.

23) False imaginings... are a distraction.  'Sacrificing' them improves creative imagination... its a paradox.

24) Doing things well... and the relationship between Quality and the Sacred.   Individuals 'do' things well... because they are focused on the task at hand.

25) Considering... and standing alone from manipulation... free from identification with 'others'.  Considering is a form of identification.   You can be 'considerate' without 'considering'.

26) Common Sense... the importance of it... the definition of it.  This may not be spoken of directly by Gurdjieff but its implied and applicable.  See also 'Conscience'.

27) Self Observation... is observing the mechanics of the 'person'... without diagnosing it.  See also... A Spiritual Roadmap

28) Self Remembering... "The third state of consciousness is Self Remembering or Self consciousness or consciousness of ones being" (from Ouspensky's 'In Search of the Miraculous).  Self Remembering is first 'remembering' (IE recognizing) ones own essence (being) and then remembering to recognize ones 'Self'... and how to practice that... see also... Self Inquiry and Buddhism

29) To do... when "doing" is obvious... its relation to will... and how it is compatible with being.  How it relates to aim or purpose.

30) Law of Three... as manifested in the individual... IE: the Trinity... and in nature... IE: waves.

31) The Source of Vibrations... where they come from... and where they go to...
NOTE: "You don't need to know what a wave 'is'... in order to appreciate where it's coming 'from'. (from the 'Who Needs the Higg's' blog')

32) Self Mastery... and its relation to Self Recognition.  'Self' Mastery begins with will and ends with a reasonably balanced individual.  See also... A Spiritual Roadmap

33) Imagination... it differs from Imaginings... one is a distraction... one is useful... Gurdjieff had a vivid imagination (All and Everything)... but he never imagined he was a 'person'.  How to transmute one into the other.

34) The study of 'Man' and the nature of the world in parallel... how the paradox in nature relates to the paradox in individuals. 

35) Habits... their nature.   Taking 'advantage' of them.

36) Octaves... "In order better to understand the significance of the law of octaves it is necessary to have a clear idea of another property of vibrations namely the so-called 'inner vibrations'.  This means that within vibrations other vibrations proceed" (from Ouspensky's 'In Search of the Miraculous).  The blog explains what 'inner vibrations' are (fractals) and the source of their circular 'nature'... and why everything is circular.  When you 'see' how circularity is 'built' into nature... it's easier to deal with 'octaves'... as well as the spiritual path.

37) Objective consciousness... it's not just 'consciousness'.   'Objective' consciousness is a balance between consciousness and detached awareness or essence.  Thus you 'see' the world... 'objectively'.

38) Division of ones 'self' as a pre-requisite... taking a step 'backwards'... so to speak, in order to move forward.   Separating out awareness from the fog of 'consciousness' is 'dividing' ones self... into 'Self' and 'not self'.  IE: detachment from our 'Ouspensky' or 'self'.

39) Nothingness...  Nothingness is 'impersonal'.   Nothingness is 'undefined'.  Nothingness is 'undefined' being or 'essence'... awareness.

40) How everything 'just happens'...   or the experience of the 'person' vs the experience of the individual.   The 'person' is led... the individual is inspired.

41) Gurdjieff's view of the infinite... in Gurdjieff's view, the infinite lies behind the 'I'... the blog shows how to 'look' in the direction of the infinite.

42) How the 'Rich Magician's' (as in Brahma's) magic functions... and its relation to the 'person'... 

43) Sacrifice... attachment to personal suffering and attachment to imaginings about what we 'are' are what gets sacrificed... there are no impersonal attachments.  It also explains how that is related to transmutation.

44) Being Nobody's fool... this is not talked about explicitly but is implied in Gurdjieff... as in not being 'fooled' by those that want to distract you... IE: 'Mara's daughters'.

45) The nature of 'it' - as in what 'it' wants'... observing 'it'.  'It' is the 'person'... See also... A Spiritual Roadmap

46) The Labyrinth of contradictions... the 'person' (our Ouspensky) is a contradiction... 'essence' is 'consistent'.  See also... The Personal Dilemma

47) Talking... being or essence is the only 'thing' that puts talking in its 'proper place'.  When you know what you 'are' you don't feel as much need to talk as being is satisfied with itself.

48) Ouspenskys 'Strange Confidence'... and how that is different from 'personal' confidence.  Impersonal confidence is an aspect of being or essence.

49) Choosing Influences... transitioning from one to the other (see comments above on 'Choosing Influences'). The personality is subject to personal external influences... the individual is subject to impersonal inner influences... IE being, intuition and conscience.  So shifting from external to internal influences is the 'path'.

50) The Obyvatel... is not lost in abstractions or blinded by ideals... they are grounded in practicalities and common sense.   The Obyvatel is 'nobody's fool'.

(NOTE: I believe there are a few more in there but for now I'm leaving the list at 50)


To correlate this further see this blogs Home page at... Who Needs the Higgs blog

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